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have you ever changed for someone so much it become who you were completely? Well I did and I soon wasn’t myself around my friends wasn’t alway’s happy and wouldn’t hug my friend’s like before like it seemed they didn’t matter anymore and soon I wouldn’t do the thing’s I did before that made the person I was ME…and I didn’t realize it until I changed my feelings for the guy.I don’t regret what I did but I wish I wouldn’t have been this person who everyone knew I really wasn’t and I know now that no matter how aweosome a guy makes you feel that I won’t change for him but that I’ll be myself and he’ll like me for me:)

SO Summer has finally ended:( but at least it still get’s sunny out enough for me to go to the beach:) well many thing’s that happened this summer Kinda changed who I am today.I’ve had so many great experience’s and many awesome memorie’s and alil few mistakes that’s I’ve learned from but To me  mistake is just another experience.If I could do summer 2009 all over again and change nothing I would do it! there were good time’s and bad time’s but this is what you would call THE SUMMER OF MY LIFE:) I made new friends,got closer to family, God and had Feeling’s I didn’t even know I could have! and on top of that I met 2 pretty amazing people that made my summer a Blast..( Chase and Garrett.. thank you:)…. this Girl is just getting started:)

watch this video it shows all the serving we did through the summer so the summer of 2009 happened …WOW! I don’t even know where to begin. soo let’s just start off right from the beginning..shalll we?…so right when I finished school I was finally free and ready to head off to the beach for my summer soaking..and it was alright but of course it got better cause I went on this huge mission trip with my whole youth group.(flipside) and at first I thought serving 10 days in Baton rouge  in the hott blazing sun was defiently not the way I wanted to spend my summer…( pshh I kept praying I wouldn’t get a farmers tan)but it was actually the greatest experience I’ve ever had and even tho serving can be hard it’s all worth it in the end:) I learned so many things and got closer to my big daddy Jesus Christ and to all my friends:)  I wouldn’t change one thing that happened this summer during serving…I CAN”T WAIT FOR NEXT YEAR:)

HAVE you ever had a boyfriend I mean a boy as a frend well if you do im sure you can relate to what im about to tell you.

I have a guy friend whos so understanding I can talk to him about anything but you see he started to have feelings for me which I did as well we talked about are situation and it was satisfying at first than it got alittle out of control it was like we became more than just friends we had lost our old relationship and gained a new one he said he didnt have a problem with what was happening but for me I did. I just sat and thought for hours just waiting for his texts I basically became addicted I came to my sences and relized what i had done we hadn’t talked in person for such along time I had forgotten about my friend. it was like I didnt know who he was anymore i was so focused on what i was wearing and looking like I had lost sight in what I was becoming trying not to face the facts and ignorning the truth

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